My doctor visit today went well. He doesn't believe surgery is even a remote need/possibility. He prescribed something new and suggested some over the counter things and assured me, this will get better. This was a much better doctor's visit than I imagined.
I was back on the air this morning. It was a busy show with plenty of special guest interviews. One of my guests brought me a coffee from the new coffee place in town. This coffee place is a new client of our radio station. I'm always very careful when I accept something from anyone and my usual first question is always. "What's in this?"
This guest knows me very well and is fully aware of my weight loss and abstinence from refined sugar. She assured me: "It's french press with half & half." Perfect!!
I have the best friends and studio guests! This was a premium cup of coffee--and you better believe I was ready to drink it. I snapped a photo for the accountability tweet and waited to take a sip. She came in for the interview and I raised the cup to my lips. The first sip wasn't what I expected. It was sweet. I commented, "I think that's sugar." She knew what she ordered for me and assured me it wasn't sugar. I took a second sip. "I can't drink this. My sugar alarm is going crazy. My head feels weird."
It turned out to be a mix up at the coffee place. Condensed sweet milk was mixed with the cream--and that's where the refined sugar was found.
I was in panic mode. Two sips was all it took for my brain to light up. I felt strange. Studio mates commented that my eyes looked different. My head definitely felt different. After almost a year and a half without refined sugar, my body and head immediately reacted to this very small amount in those two little sips.
It was fascinating, actually. At first, I wasn't appreciating the fascinating part of it--I was in severe panic mode. I called Life Coach Gerri while I prepared some extra breakfast, some protein, something--anything to counter what I was feeling. I drank 3 cups of water with it, too. My biggest concern was my 530 days abstinence from refined sugar. Gerri assured me I was fine. It wasn't intentional and my streak still counts. She shared with me two instances in her 22 years of abstinence when sugar was unintentionally consumed. I felt much better, mentally, after the call. Physically, I still felt out of sorts.
My primary goal today was making sure to be extra aware of my thoughts and possible compulsions. I promised to stay well connected in support and take extraordinary care. I feel like I did that well.
It's bedtime and I've made it through just fine.
A few hours after the coffee incident, the owner of this new coffee place showed up at the studio with another cup of coffee and his apologies for the mix up. He told me how horrible he felt about it--and I assured him it wasn't anything to feel bad about! What an amazing person. It was the nicest thing. It gave the two of us an opportunity to get to know one another much better. His coffee is extraordinary, by the way. I enjoyed the sugar free cup of french press with half and half and even though my head was still spinning even three hours after the two sugar sips, I had to smile. I knew then, I was going to be okay.
And like Gerri said, "If you had continued past those first sips--after you realized what it was, then we would have had a problem and needed a serious talk. But you handled it perfectly."
A big part of my success is found in the importance level I give my fundamental elements of recovery. A big part of that is treating my abstinence from refined sugar with the same reverence as an alcoholic in successful recovery treats their sobriety. I've lived what happens when I don't apply this importance level. I don't want to live that way again.
It was like an unintended experiment.
It's not that I needed confirmation of how I react to refined sugar. But truly, it was fascinating to feel the profound effect--and so quickly!!! I literally felt drugged. My coworkers could tell I was "messed up." Isn't that interesting??
I'm still on guard tonight and I'll be extra aware of my thoughts and actions over the next few days. But all things considered, I'm feeling good about how it all turned out.
On the other issue of late, recovering from this ailment has been tricky. It starts to feel better then I do something and it gets flared up again. I'm looking forward to applying the suggestions from the doctor. I also received some awesome suggestions from my studio guest and friend. (she reads this blog occasionally--that's how she knew) Whatever works! I'm just looking forward to this pain thing clearing up.
I've taken a break from exercise because of this painful ailment and I must say, it's starting to mess with me horribly. I had to get out and do something tonight. So I simply walked. I had a good walk and it didn't seem to irritate the situation. The walk was more for me on a mental level than a physical one. If I go too long without some semblance of a workout, I start getting panicky. I've worked too hard to start falling back into old habits. Not that I am-- but taking a necessary break for healing, despite how normal and healthy that is, can start to feel that way.
My Tweets Today:
Good morning! Dark roast with two tablespoons half & half X 2 cups. 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/TLrCif7eTH— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
My favorite breakfast. Avocado omelet w/3 egg whts-1 whl egg, 115g avocado, 8.3oz pear & 141g apple. 516 cal. pic.twitter.com/BriL2zX0P4— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
Two whole eggs w/28g marble jack & garden fresh diced tomato. 256 cal. pic.twitter.com/nF46NSnlXn— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
The tale of 2 coffees. Details in tonight's blog. I'm drinking the one on the right. 2 tblspns half&half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/6EBVeLiEIb— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
Lunch in MFP... pic.twitter.com/jj7vDsOoGD— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
Nachos Supreme. 28g chips, 28g marble-jack, 4oz 91% lean beef, tomatoes, lettuce & 15g lght sr crm. 473 cal. pic.twitter.com/gvlQZ2p3kN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
4.7oz banana. 75 cal. pic.twitter.com/BBn4SY5FiA— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 7, 2015
Cooking dinner... pic.twitter.com/LeEXU0ubz8— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 8, 2015
Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/p8bH2TTnYY— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 8, 2015
Kabobs. 7oz chicken breast, 300g swt.potato & red onion, baked yellow squash, grilled peppers. OOspray (6sec). 603cal pic.twitter.com/nghZBXstYu— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 8, 2015
After dinner cup with three tablespoons half & half. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/yxR4dzF81e— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 8, 2015
Headed out for some low impact exercise. Simply walking tonight.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 8, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,